The words of infamy, elation and dread are as follows: "I think we should have ***" exuberance immediately follows, this is what you've wanted for so long. but your body betrays you again. nothing. nothing. nothing. the lack of response from your body like a negative heartbeat. a deepening hole, a very real depression. the object of your desire, even your love in front of you and your life, your thrill for *** flat-lines. such depression is the death of joy. the body is willing but the flesh is living dead. you still breathe, you are still alive, but the question remains: is life worth living when your passion is flat-lined? I'm not sure it is anymore