before we truly understood
each other
I never knew where you
came from

before we had an understanding
I never knew what
you were made of

such undying
love.
but also such undying
hatred.

why don't you
accept yourself
and love yourself like
you love me

I know you don't
see what I see
all those limitless possibilities

before I truly understood
you and knew what you
had been through,

I still saw you as
a success and an achiever
but self loathing so much
of yourself is so hard to
watch as you repeat

over and over
how much you'll never
reach the top
and you'll just be climbing
forever.

before I can truly
understand
your ulterior motives
or what is beneath those deteriorating eyelids

I just wish you would
see how much you are
worth instead of how
you see yourself as worthless...