Im such a ******* failure
End of the quarter
And I have like two d's
And an F in geometry!
That's my ******* report card
To come home with?
I'm going to be grounded.
I hate that disappointed look
That my parents get
And their 'no grades no college'
Speech
Because they don't see
That all that does
Is tear me down
And make me want to give up
On everything
Including living
Because my sister is amazing
And going to an ivy league school
In new ******* York
And she is becoming a surgeon
And then there's Lindsey
The little lesbian black sheep
Who fails her classes
No hope for that one
I just get negative negative
All around me
And I hate it I HATE IT
SO ******* MUCH
PUT A *******
BULLET IN MY BRAIN
AND SWALLOW ALL THE PILLS
AND CUT ALL MY VEINS
JUST TO ENSURE I DIE.
That's the only way
I'll ever be remembered positively
In my house.
'such a shame'
And my mom will go pray to god
And ask why and think he works in mysterious ways
But he doesn't
It's my choice.
Nothing mysterious about it.