I don't feel right And its so unexplainable. I feel like my body is shutting down And some nights, most nights, I wish it really would. Some days I accept it And just go with it But most days I have to sit on my hands And silence the screams That beg to emerge with my sobs, As I get the urge to rip my skin off And conduct a full search to find The source of this feeling. Because there must be something Hidden deep within my veins Or floating in my blood stream, That leaves me with this feeling of being Too empty and too full, all at once. I lay here in silent agony And drown in my own salt water tears And I fight the urge I fight it bare ****** and ***** Because if it wins, I lose. And I've already lost enough, Including myself All together.