I’m not well tonight
Tears cloud my vision
A sobering thought crosses my mind
I deserve every moment
Tormented by something unseen
A substance in my veins
So unclean, infected...Undetectable
The only relief
Is hidden away, in plain sight
A sliver blade and simple cuts
Allow a feeling so
Beautiful and pure
For a moment, nothing else matters
Reality crashes back.....
There’s still a shame, which comes with it
Even after all these years
Fight the tears, fight the need
Loose at both...A vicious cycle
Continued until the familiar darkness takes me
Awake hours later confused and alone
The bloodstains tell me
Every unspoken word
Every haunting thought
Clean up and hide every ounce of evidence
That points to me breaking down
Not that anyone would care to look
Even if I could scream it out
There’s no one there to listen
I’m Alone....