Mar 2014
Your happiness is a mask
Covering up something fundamentally broken.
I looked at her and smiled softly for the first time that day.
Today like so many days out of my life, I want to **** myself. I want to die. Yes something is wrong with me, I am sad and brittle to my core. Some days I find that the light of the sun is a 100 lb weight on my shoulders just pushing me down. Some days I walk through the city feeling like I am moving through mud.
I closed my eyes smiled genuinely.
Other days I am happy and I don't ask why I just roll with it, Some days the light of the world lifts me up and pulls me forward. Some days this city moves and I pick up my feet to match it. But every day know that I am hiding nothing, this is who I am.
She hugged me and I hugged her.
Covering up something fundamentally broken.
I looked at her and smiled softly for the first time that day.
Today like so many days out of my life, I want to **** myself. I want to die. Yes something is wrong with me, I am sad and brittle to my core. Some days I find that the light of the sun is a 100 lb weight on my shoulders just pushing me down. Some days I walk through the city feeling like I am moving through mud.
I closed my eyes smiled genuinely.
Other days I am happy and I don't ask why I just roll with it, Some days the light of the world lifts me up and pulls me forward. Some days this city moves and I pick up my feet to match it. But every day know that I am hiding nothing, this is who I am.
She hugged me and I hugged her.
