As the date approaches, the feelings rise
It's weird how emptiness can be so filling
it can consume your body, without a choice.

I refused to leave you, to leave the hospital.
I wouldn't let go of your soft limp hands.
I couldn't look away from your closed eyes.

I wanted more than anything for the high peaks in the lines
for thumps coming from your chest.
for air to be pushing out of your body
and air to be brought back in.

I couldn't stand to see you anymore
laying helplessly on the bed
but I couldn't walk out the door,
knowing it'd be my last time with you.

I knew that once I left that building,
I had lost you. Forever. I couldn't accept it.
Going home with one less friend.
And years without you, I still can't accept it.