I am fine again
I fake smile again
You may think I'm ok again,
but I cry again
Not where you can see
When I cry it's invisible,
it's on the inside of me
no one ever really sees the storm raging inside of me,
or the war that makes it go on
I am fine again
I lie again
I cry again
I am not afraid,
but at the same time I am
I accept it
I reject it
and accept it all over again
It goes right through me and it hits me hard
I know I'm not fine
Deep down I know I'll never be fine again
I don't think I ever was
You can buy it
And I will sell it
I'll say I'm fine, I'm just a bit tired
and you'll say you should get more rest
and I'll say ok, I will and smile to make you relax a bit
But you'll never know what's inside
The storm that's raging and the war that's causing it
I'm not even sure what the war's about
I don't even know what or how it started
I don't even remember when it happened
But it's still happening now
And I'm not even sure who's winning
My angels or my demons
I just hope that the angels are going to win soon,
because if not
It might be too late
And my demons might win the war...
My angels...
*-whispers- please win...