I started missing you today I usually don't miss people because missing people is weird and sad and I already have enough negativity in my head when you whisper hello and make me turn my head and remind me Then I get this ticking sound in the back of my head and I keep telling my feet it's time to turn around but then I remember that even if I started walking I would never find you and then the itch comes back and the tick turns into a beat then I realize its a mix of my heartbeat and me repeatedly punching the wall or my head maybe if I could feel that'd clear that part up and I remember the questions I needed to ask you about math class and I remember your little sister telling me that you had a crush on me and to keep it a secret and I remember the swing set we pushed her on and the only thing I can't remember is when you told me you loved me but I know you did because I told you I loved you too and I still do love you and I know I should remember that above everything else but I don't and I'm sorry I'm so sorry for everything I'm sorry I didn't help you cheat on that test and I'm sorry I didn't save you a seat at lunch that one time and I'm sorry I forgot to study with you the other night and I'm sorry I let you walk home because I was mad at you and I'm sorry I let that car be the last thing to kiss you