I can fake a smile so perfect I can lie to your face
While at night I’m bleeding because I can’t seem to cry
Beautiful red tears contaminated with self hate
Press a little harder, bleed a little longer
Dizziness but no regret maybe this time it will end
Bottle it up hold it close then place it with the others
Close that door and forget the shame for a little while
Empty medication bottles litter my the bedroom floor
Just a reminder I’m really as ****** up as I think
Sitting there praying it will end a Strange calm returns
Clarity at last, Relax. Clean up I’m going to survive
This isn’t the first time, this won’t be the last
I’ve turned to a frightening, potentially deadly
Coping mechanism