You whisper to me
that you care

You put thoughts
in my mind that
make me feel like
I matter

But I know these words are not real
I know that these words are drunken lies

And I let you feed me
I let you feed me lie
after lie
because it makes
me feel alive

And I fell into your trance
and I let you use my body
like a little *****

But I don't know
what made you think
that this time was different

And I don't know
what made you think
you could push
and push

Why?

"turn over" you said
forcing me to lay *** up

"let me do it"

"it won't hurt"

"i will go slow"

you said.

and I said no.
I said please.
I said no.
no.
stop I said.

and your body felt
like a million pounds
on top of me

I couldn't get you off

You wouldn't let me free

you kept going
and you pushed
and pushed

and all I felt was
p a i n

while I tried
not to let you see
the tears around my eyes,
I begged you.
I pleaded.

I tried to get your
drunken body off of mine
but you tried to tell me
that it was okay

You told me to stop
You told me I liked it