My mom once told me hate was a strong word, and I can thus say for certain
I hate this.

I hate how I keep thinking about you the minute I wake up,
I hate how when I see a photo of you my heart drops,
I hate how when I go to bed I can't escape you because you're in all of my dreams,
I hate how I still get dressed in order to catch your attention,
I hate how I spend time thinking about what we could be, what we never will be,
I hate how you walk around and act like everything is okay,
I hate how you can smile everyday and seem to not care,
I hate how you have the option to ignore all of this,
I hate how I decided to tell you how I felt in the first place,
I hate how you stare at me still for moments that feel like they last forever,
I hate how time still stops when I hear your voice,
I hate how when I see you you're the only person I focus on,
I hate how we don't talk to each other anymore,
I hate how impatient I feel like I'm being,
I hate how you're taking your time,
I hate how I know you know how I feel,
I hate how I feel so vulnerable,
I hate how after everything I still like you,
I hate how I can't just let you go,
I hate how I'm *still wishing