once more I have never failed to amaze myself.
every night a new phenomenon
of how I cant seem to live
correctly or in correlation
of common beliefs and thoughts
or of how ive failed to amaze
the high strung bitten woman
who we dare to call a mom.
given my due responsibilities
how could we possibly ask for much
when all I am to this life
is bitter, unwritten
and another weak worthless human being
being asked for more than one can imagine.
unfortunately ive put my all
into pleasing everyone around me
when yet
I have failed to please myself
or do anything that could be considered
pampering.
Focusing on the path ahead
is nearly impossible
when you've been sent off the edge of the road
and now I can plainly see
what ive been destined to do
and it certainly does not involve
your own personal pleasure.