How many times, and in how many ways Will the pain keep returning and beg me to stay? Is it all just a wish that I hope will come true, Or have I been but hoping that you’re wishing, too? Every tear that I hide, and each smile that I fake When I feel I don’t know how much more I can take Are but shards of the dreams that I thought would come true As they work their way out to make room for the new And I keep to myself all this pain that now rests In what feels like a hole now devouring my chest Though I feel like I’m dying, it helps me to thrive For if not for the pain, how could I feel alive? It’s what drives me to keep going on every day Through the cold, lonely nights when I can’t find my way And it helps me to feel when I can’t feel at all Giving strength to my weakness and flight to my fall But one day it will go, for it won’t have a choice And my demons will flee as my angels rejoice When the one who will cherish and never forsake Will fight all to be with me, whatever it takes