Oh, the ringing in my ears
When silence comes, and I can’t hear
The emptiness desired in my argumental mind
For it is not the confusion in any given moment
But that of the negative and the positive
Stretched out over such unendingly short moments
Compounded together in knowledge I often fail to see
Accepted and treasured in this slumbering wake
Some days wishing it to end
Some days daring it to continue
Silently screaming as it tortures me
Smiling as it sustains and strengthens me
Waiting for the night to come
Waiting for the night to end
The sun, both a blessing and a curse
The moon, both enemy and friend
A tug of war between chaos and calm
In each I drown
And without either one, I suffocate
Neither one alone brings true peace
How I wish for simplicity
And long for complication
Never seeming quite satisfied with either
Even on days when I feel like I’m dying
I have never felt so alive
Therein lies my madness
Therein lies my sanity