I don't take risks.

I like to play it safe
If I know how the end is
I'll usually take it
I don't normally do new things
I just don't
I'm afraid to fail at anything
But if I do fail
I end up not caring
It's a process I have
I never thought about it til now
But it's true.

See,
I know a girl
She's in band with me
And she is the most
Determined *******
I have ever seen.
I swear to God
She just doesn't stop trying
And she fails
Every. Single. Time.
She probably has
A time or two
Actually gotten what she was after
But ****
If I had but
A mustard seed
Of the determination
That she has,
Man,
I could rule the world!

But the thing she does
That I don't do
Is try.
Simply try.
I am given chances to do things
Try new things
Meet new people
Do things I've never done before
But I never take it up
I never take the chance
I flake it off
And stay home instead

So I think
Starting now
I'm going to try more.

I'm going to challenge my courses
I'm going to learn those instruments
I'm going to get better at what I do
I'm going to become ambidextrous
I'm going to define my style
I'm going to travel the world
I'm going to New York
I'm going to do all these things

Yet I'm still not going to take a chance with you.



Old habits die hard, after all.