I feel you in my whispers and I hear you in my dreams. I see you on the faces of people on the street. You haunt my thoughts and cannot leave me be. I do not understand why I fail to shake your awful presence. You leave me frightened. Anxious. Alone. My pleasant memories of you have been erased by the monster you have become. You shred my heart into strings and watched it go up in flames. I failed to put the fire out and what was once my heart was left as no more than a pile of ashesβ burnt to a crisp like autumn leaves. The fumes arose and stung as I inhaled the air allowing it to sit in my lungs, leaving me with the feeling of being underwater, unable to breathe.