I expected to see you again.
Really, I did.
I didn't want to- yet every day I hoped that fate would give me a wave of his hand and say:
okay: todays the day.
the sadness will fade
and you will create my happiness, so I don't have to anymore.
I don't have to act like I'm happy when I'm not.
I don't have to be someone I'm not.


I saw the side of you today.
Its funny because I've been waiting for the moment when you would bump into me around a corner and yet
I wasn't expecting it.

Things always happen when you least expect it.

You smiled and laughed at something.
I don't even remember the last time I was that happy.
You looked so happy.
Your happiness radiated onto me, and then once the stream got into my consciousness I froze.
I was no longer sunny and warm.
But cold.
Freezing, actually.
I couldn't move my feet.
I couldn't move my body.
I wasn't in control anymore.

You were.

My eyes welled up with tears and before I knew it I was outside.
I wasn't breathing the same air you were anymore.
I was away.
I didn't know how I got there.
Not at all.
I didn't know that you had this much control over me.
That I actually cared about you this much.

To be honest: it really scares me.

It was so unexpected.