Girls push past me Stylish combat boots Finding basement stairs Tight pants, low-cut shirts And straightened hair. Their mascara-ed eyes scan and skip The spot where I stand. But I’m grateful for The lack of acknowledgement. If their eyes lit up on me I would freeze My shoulders would scrunch And the words they would throw In my direction Would meet brick wall. All I would reverberate Is a hesitating smile Accompanied by unsure eyes. My brain just isn’t taking small talk tonight.
And I will never understand Why cursory conversation Slaps me in the face like a 20 step algebraic equation.
The truth is: I don’t care what you thought of that math test I wanna know what you think of trees in the fall. I don’t care what your tweet was about. I wanna know why you were on twitter at 4 am on a school night. I don’t care how your boyfriend is. I wanna know where you stand with god. I don’t care where you got your dress, how much you studied, or if you dyed your hair.
What makes you cry at night? Have you ever felt insane? Do you believe in soul mates? What do you think about the moon? Which song are you embarrassed to know all the words to? And do you ever worry that your mom isn’t proud of you?
I just find that It’s so much easier To talk to people When they’re actually saying something.