I can't seem to hold a best friend.
They run off after so long.
Ignore me,
find reasons to avoid me.
Maybe I did something wrong.
But I tell myself not to apologize.
Not to swallow my pride and apologize for something so stupid.
Saying hi to another friend isn't something you should have gotten
mad about.
But every time,
I swallow my pride and apologize
for something I probably shouldn't.
Because I don't want to lose you.
Now, neither of my best friends
are wanting to talk to me or be around me.
After the unmentionable number of best friends that I've gone through,
maybe it is just me.
I'm sorry I don't do drama.
That's why I'm a tomboy.
I don't do drama
and avoid it as much as possible.
But now I feel as if I have no one to talk to.
Truly,
sometimes the only person you can rely on,
is yourself.
And I learn that lesson more and more every time.
I'm sorry I can't tear the entire wall down
to the ground.
I just have to protect myself,
because I can only take so many blows.
Maybe it's me.