push
hard
and fast and
the tiny drop of
nausea in the pit
of my stomach
as I close my eyes
the world spins around
me, and I stay
still
completely unmoved
by my surroundings
completely without
emotion, lifeless
for a moment
and as the world
rushes back into me
like a cold wind
the familiar shiver
descends my spine
and the awe
of being
overwhelms me
again.