In that moment my heart stopped and the world stopped along with it
I never knew silence could be so terrifying
I tried to breathe but oxygen wasn't there
I was empty
When I came back to reality it hit me like crashing wave
It left my head spinning and my mouth dry
I finally understood the words my father had said to me with his voice shaking
I'm so sorry
Tears streamed down my face that burned my skin
I reached out but nothing was there to grab
I felt although I was drowning
How could you **** me like this?
Maybe my problem was I saw beauty in storms
and you were the biggest storm I ever saw
I chased you, I loved you
But you destroyed me
And worse yet your storm never died down completely
I still feel gusts of wind from time to time
I hear you in the rustling of the trees and I still do not hide
I am so terribly broken
So how do you heal when you can't clean up the mess
parts of you dying and parts of you dead
I will not appear strong for I can no longer pretend
*goodbye