it scares the hell out of me
that i have the option to find new beginnings
it makes me sick
knowing that you are letting me

after months and years of slowly melting together
colliding with each other's colors
of soft gray and deep blue
you fade away

but I need you here
and you don't know how it hurts me
to see you smile at everyone else except me
while I'm screaming for you to notice me
but then it all makes sense
and i fall on the floor
you don't care anymore.