TRUTH IS I AM LIVING A LIE
AND I SEE YOUR UNFORGIVING EYES
EACH TIME I CLOSE MINE
I AM A UNIVERSE OF MISUNDERSTOOD MISTAKES
AND DRIED UP ROSES
BUT IF YOU LOOK
CLOSE ENOUGH
YOU WILL SEE GOD*

i've done all i want to do before i die besides seeing the world and falling into requited love but this world, this life, this universe seems to have some ****** up plan for me and i'm not so sure what it is. there was a time when i believed i could change the world but then the world changed me. i am swaying like trees in the wind and my eyes are closed and i cannot hear them calling my name over the sound of the shore that begged me to stay, although i have not seen it since the late fall, and now it is late winter and there is snow all around me *bury yourself inside of me it is cold in the wind but warm under my skin, i promise i will share. we spent evenings huddling for heat and we spent mornings under sheets, under each others skin. now i am alone and desolate but that does not make me any less whole or any less real. i am a human being and we all need love.