If I pray hard enough
radiation from our advancements
will destroy me
from the inside
For I would rather parish
than bring a life into this world
of distopian future
bearing no love
no shelter
or legacy
to carry on

To live long enough to apologize
for giving a life away
and offering another soul
to the crumbling world
around me
would simply leave me
broken beyond repair

If I pray hard enough
let me parish with my future sons of war
My conscience will not allow me to live or die
by leaving another life to a war
and simply fading away.