The blades have tasted blood, and it was surely mine
The venom torments me, with memories divine
Plagued with distrust, it begins to rot my mind
Voices start to taunt, love i'll never find
Constant realization, everything was pretend
Efforts proved worthless, a failure in the end
Ashamed of having tried, hearts never mend
Now what do I do, I've lost my only friend
Hiding behind a fake face, Ive lost my usual place
Fear then takes, my body begins to shake
Love i've lost, now im paying the cost
Waiting for the right person, why am i hurtin?
I  begin to blame, wishing i wasnt in pain
I know it was me, but why does it have to be?
Im asking questions, and not getting an answer
I become a dancer, then he gets hit with cancer
Please Lord why? he isnt even a bad guy
Why cant it be i, i deserve
im the one that took the curve
He did nothing wrong, but i have all along
This is my prayer, that i suffer
This honestly couldnt get any tougher
Just as i think this, there goes that slight bliss
The little bit of light, i loose its sight
Hiding behind my face, i try to embrace
I dont even have one friend, thats when i begin to cut again
The blades enjoy as i endure, i wish i couldve just stayed pure.