so I didn’t know just how wrong
I really was.
Let you ***** me all up-
all it took was one night
one half hour
one open window.

What a joke,
that half hour how I loved it
how I loved you.

Just a kid even though
I swore up and down
left and right
that I wasn’t.
I was really so
grown up.

What a delusion.
None of it was true, I was
just a fifteen year old girl
who thought she might be
special.
Just a girl who thought
she meant something to you.

Not true.
You left and I was left to be
messed up in the mind
******* up in the head
heart mangled.
Never fully healed and still unable
to say a complete goodbye
to loving you.