you say you care
you act like I should trust you
everyone else does
everyone else loves you
why would anyone not
and I want to
I really do...
but I can't forget
and I just can't forgive
you watched me get torn apart
and yes I made some mistakes
maybe I should've kept my mouth shut
but I didn't and I'm sorry
but the way you sat by
letting them slowly kill me with words
lies that you watched them string together
and I even asked you for help
just to tell them the truth
and you outrightly denied me
and I know you apologized
but you apologized because you felt you had to
not because you understood
if you could just understand how awful it feels
to be alone
people torturing you with lies they know nothing about
and feeling like it's all your fault
and theres nothing you can do
because no one is in your corner
no one cared about me enough to even try and help
because you've never been hurt like that
and you just don't understand why it affects me so much
but thats why it affects me... because you don't
and how can I trust you when you say you care
how can you possibly care about me
when you've caused me so much pain
and I want to believe you've changed
but you just don't get it
and I know it makes sense
and maybe I should be over it
forgive and forget
but I can't
and until you understand why
I'm not sure I ever can
and it kills me
because I really want to trust you
but I just can't