I haven't figured out what's worse
Being in a room full of people
People I've known my whole life
People i love with all that I can give,
and feel like another brick in the wall
Watching
Isolated
Feeling out of my body
Floating further and further away

Or
Being alone in my room
Not knowing whether i want to
Punch a wall
Cry uncontrollably
Go for a run
Run away
Scream
I'm held captive

I haven't figured out which is worse
Because in either place
I'm still facing my anxiety
Alone.