I only took the rat poison
Because I thought there were rats inside of me

And sprayed the inside of my mouth with pesticide
Because I could feel the bugs crawling up and down my throat

That day I tried to drown myself
Was only because I thought
If my demons knew how to swim
Escape would be easy

When I opened up my arms
I only wanted to free the nightmares

I took thirty- six sleeping pills
Because I thought it would
Hush the voices in my mind

The whole gallon of gasoline
Was not intended
Just enough ( A few ounces or so)
So the fire inside of me would burn out

And the cup of charcoal
Because I realized
I wanted everything back