you are the first person I've ever wanted to share sunsets with my loneliness stings like a salt bath after a night of wine and fresh Elvis wounds, you are anything but desolate the summer of two thousand nine I opened my veins to try and see God the doctor who stitched me up asked what a 13 year old would know about faith and all I said was that God takes his turn on the swingset by pushing other children out of the way, but you are an angel and even still I'd boil your halo and inject it in my veins I want to be close to your holiness like warmth, like winter; we go together like relief with you, i'm never even here but I never want to leave because I need you like my childhood that haunts the walls, like sunday morning acoustics and coffee that's too sweet, but not sweet enough for you to say anything say nothing, I miss you because you're not here and I'm not there and still we are anything but lonely the day I met you, I started missing you.