Feb 2014
Selectively mines, on conditions that I don't step out of line, don't dare ask too many questions because it makes you answer with more questions where I'm turnt into the bad guy,
the one who doesn't understand, it's all my fault somehow, it's because of me, I failed to give into to ridicules accusations or allow defeat, I was pushed past the point of breaking ,
I even lost me a few times, I've been insane for as long as I can remember but this time it's completely different, I wake to walk in fear every hours of the day,
I'm made to feel ashamed for loving you, told I'll never be as good as the one you're faithfully into someone whose not even known you not the real you not as I do,
seed after useless seeds polluted a once healthy womb, drop after drop tears fell ******* shadows passing me up,
leaving me for what may become a happy ending to this fairytale nightmare,screaming myself away flinging covers off of me, laughing as I cry out darkness, so dark and the scents nostalgically unpleasant, the many times her scents lingered on you
even in thought I conjure up the smell of lies, the musty deceit, the filthy metallic accusations thrown at me
Selectively mines when it suites your ego and when it's not inconveniencing you, I'm turnt into the bad one the person whose always to blame,
the one who
doesn't understand,
it's all my fault
somehow,
it's because of me,
I failed to give into
to ridicules accusations
or allow defeat,
I was pushed
past the point of breaking
the reason you need her - where I no longer have a place, I had no choice too, I had to move on.
Hardest things to do when your reaching for a hand but end up with straws, darkness and no help, dreams unpleasantly real, craving a touch a kiss, to be notice.
Knock knock,
whose there?
No one....
Just your
Wife of 11 years.
Always Me Ayeshah ®
Copyright 1977 - Present ©
K.A.C.L.N ©
All right reserved ®
the one who doesn't understand, it's all my fault somehow, it's because of me, I failed to give into to ridicules accusations or allow defeat, I was pushed past the point of breaking ,
I even lost me a few times, I've been insane for as long as I can remember but this time it's completely different, I wake to walk in fear every hours of the day,
I'm made to feel ashamed for loving you, told I'll never be as good as the one you're faithfully into someone whose not even known you not the real you not as I do,
seed after useless seeds polluted a once healthy womb, drop after drop tears fell ******* shadows passing me up,
leaving me for what may become a happy ending to this fairytale nightmare,screaming myself away flinging covers off of me, laughing as I cry out darkness, so dark and the scents nostalgically unpleasant, the many times her scents lingered on you
even in thought I conjure up the smell of lies, the musty deceit, the filthy metallic accusations thrown at me
Selectively mines when it suites your ego and when it's not inconveniencing you, I'm turnt into the bad one the person whose always to blame,
the one who
doesn't understand,
it's all my fault
somehow,
it's because of me,
I failed to give into
to ridicules accusations
or allow defeat,
I was pushed
past the point of breaking
the reason you need her - where I no longer have a place, I had no choice too, I had to move on.
Hardest things to do when your reaching for a hand but end up with straws, darkness and no help, dreams unpleasantly real, craving a touch a kiss, to be notice.
Knock knock,
whose there?
No one....
Just your
Wife of 11 years.
Always Me Ayeshah ®
Copyright 1977 - Present ©
K.A.C.L.N ©
All right reserved ®
it's sad to give anyone all of you when you now only have very little to nothing left to give your self, I know for me trusting people is too scary, last relationship lasted 3 yrs and what went down in the previous one which was 11 ++ really both did a number on me. never forget to trust your instincts.
