I don’t want to be
That stupid, love-sick girl
I have always been.
I burned her remains in
The fires of my heart
Long ago.
And I don’t want her back.

But here you suddenly are.
So beautiful in every way, every aspect.
That you have come to make me
That girl again.
The one who hopes again.
The one who prays for love.


You’ve destroyed my perfectly
Constructed walls.
And I’m tightly clinging on
For all I know.
I don’t think you could ever
Make me feel so low.

But then you tell me about her.

The way she smiles when you kiss her.
The way she touches you, late
When the moon is out alone.
And I tell you how happy
I am for you, how great I
Think it is.

Because these are the things friends tell each other.
I know I should feel a
Sparkling happiness for you.
But all I feel is a burning
In my stomach and a pain
In my heart and I know again.

This is what it is to feel your heart die again.

There’s no hope. No love. There’s only me
Trying time and time again to run
Away from my own skin.