Have you ever felt everything?
On top of the world, so to speak,
As if you could fly and grow wings
If you only took that first leap,
A fire of passion inside you burns
Yearning to explode; burst.
So much is raging, inside you singing,
Life is beautiful, because I am simply
Alive.


Surprise.


It's consuming, the emptiness,
No outburst of rage or affection,
I just look on, with glazed impassive eyes
As they speak to me of many things
Expecting a reaction that never comes,
The apathy would be terrifying,
If I could feel fear.
Have you ever felt nothing?


Panic; is that an emotion?
Attempt to control the oncoming surge of numbness,
Do anything to feel something,
I've tried it all; thrills, comforts, pleasures.
Pain.
Few have an effect
And of those that do, few last.
I thirst for more hurt,
Just something to feel...
Anything.


Hopefully these images flow in and out of your head
Without grabbing hold,
Floating,
Just like me.



Think to yourself, 'she's crazy,'
And along with the world
Stare quietly.