I feel so worthless.
I feel so alone.
I'm on my own.
Nobody can see
how bad I hurt.
But, you'll see
when I'm buried
six feet in the dirt.
I slash my own arms.
Try to run away
from all the mistakes that I have made.
Trying to stay sober
trying to take all the pain
trying to keep myself in this game.
I hear the voices in my head.
So many things that I would like to understand.
Pain, oh, pain, why do you have to bother me today?
I have my mom telling me, it's only the things that I hear,
but, mom why do you drink so many beers?
It's apparently an ancient joke.
So, just let me take one small ****.
I feel like a joke.
There's no hope.