Pink wild roses sit outside my door. HAPPY B-DAY!!!! is written on the card. Picking them up I turn and go into my apartment. I slam the door, slide down on the inside and weep; all good intentions, all bad ideas. Everything is a reminder, a reminder of our first date, our first birthday shared together, our last day together. I get up and go to the bathroom. I don’t know who those eyes belong to staring back at me. I don’t know those lips… all too sad to belong to me. Pile on the make-up, cover up the red rimmed eyes; brighten the drawn lips. Slip on my favourite sun dress, his favourite sundress. The yellow flowers pop off the fabric that floats above my knees. My flowers. I hug myself while closing my eyes. There’s knocking at the door, run to answer it. My Sunshine’s there, questioning look, searching eyes, then a bright smile. “I love that dress…” I smile back, but inside I’m hurt. He could never love this dress the same way He did. No one could. “I love it to…” I hug him, a great big bear hug, “…Thank you.”