i cried for you today. i cried because i miss you. because i feel so, so terrible. because i know that what happened wasn't something you intended. wasn't something you wanted. but honestly, i have my own opinion of what happened. but it isn't the same as yours. i gave you the benefit of the doubt. i just couldn't take it anymore. when i said goodbye, when i was angry, things were said that i didn't understand. things that you didn't either, i'm sure. since then, i have done a lot of thinking. since then, i have made my own conclusions and made my decisions. and i forgive you. please, i know you don't understand what i mean but please try to understand that i still love you. still wish things didn't have to be this way. still see you as innocent. for everything i said, i'm sorry. for what i won't say... i'm sorry, too. i don't really know why i'm saying this right now. i don't even want a response.
to be honest, i don't want you to read this. that's really all i have to say.