knees to chest, chin to knees, chunky knit sweater scarf patrolling my peripherals when i want to see your expression from the corner of my eye; it starts to slip my mind and i am a horse with blinders, i am looking through a window’s blinds that draw vertical shadows like a maze out of the morning sun.
you give me the glasses to peer through at you but then we are laughing like nothing happened, undermining what happened because nothing happened; and i open myself to you, flow like fast lava, molten hot and rushing. swallowed by my own thoughts until i can’t see you again, until i can’t see anything-
saw you walking around the other day, with arms outstretched like wings, with dark purple eclipses under your eyes like bad makeup from falling asleep to the sunrise again.
and i’ll tell you, “you seem tired,” and you’ll tell me, “i am tired.”
over circles of coffee mug stains on white, white sheets of papers to read, Times New Roman burned into the backs of your eyelids so hot it stings when you take out your contact lenses.
and i’ll see you now, in a new light- still halfway shrouded in shadows, you are like an unfinished rubik’s cube; i try to put red and red together but each turn only reveals more colors, more pieces to collect before i can solve your puzzle.