I felt you the minute I met you
I felt your skin for the first time and my world slowed down
I felt it over again until everything was hazy with dew and morning light
I felt your eyes on me, watching my every move
I felt the words that you said-and allowed you in
I felt your hair in my hands and your mattress with no sheets
I felt you breathe in early hours clumsily finding me through twisted blankets
I felt you say those vile words and let down my guard completely
I felt me lose control

and then
I felt the uneasiness in your movements
I felt the vagueness in your every word
I felt me losing you
I felt me losing it
I felt myself say words I never meant
I felt like making you feel
I felt your shame that night, the uneven stare and lack of ambition
I felt my wet cheeks and shaking hands
I felt every nerve in my body become exposed
I felt our talk about 'us' weeks later-how we are going to end up together, "theres just so much love"
I felt empty words
I felt you pull off my clothes and **** me on the couch
I felt you leave


i don't want to feel you anymore.