So far down
and too far gone.
Higher than life on Drunken stupidity,
Hallucination versus Reality.

Just one more drag,
choke down another swig.
Borderline absent yet in full control,
only wanted a Midnight stroll.

One I Regretfully Took...

No turning back,
Unable to hit eject,
heading full-speed down a Disaster course;
YOU having no feeling of Remorse.

Denying MY lack of restraint,
unable to stop the Inevitable.
Smooth talker from the start'
unable to protect MY heart.

Where was my brain?

Curiosity got the best of YOU,
YOU took the best part of ME.
Force-Filled and Painful,
Never been more Fearful.

Took without will,
never to return again.
Left alone to Awake,
and feel the Heart Break.

Where the hell am I?

Driving home in a daze.
Unable to comprehend.
Washing away YOUR swear for an hour;
letting MY humility devour.

Broken never to be fixed,
Five therapist deep;
trying not to fade away,
but now I can finally say...

**YOU ***** ME