You know, I might be wasted
But these words
They come straight from the heart
Haven’t you ever heard
That drunken lips say sober thoughts

The only reason
I’m stumbling over my words
Is because I’ve got too much to say
And it wants to come out
All at once

Sometimes
I want to scream
And shout
Until my lungs give out

But I can’t
I ******* can’t
Because no one will listen
Who would?
I’m a ****** up girl
With ****** up thoughts
And a self-esteem to match

****.

So when I’m drunk
Alcohol in my veins
Clouding my thoughts
I can’t help it
I can’t control myself
I can’t contain it
I talk

Now, I’m not a very vocal person
Usually
But then I get
You know
Plastered
Then
If you’re around me
You’ll know me
My darkest secrets
My deepest regrets
My innermost thoughts
You’ll know me

Maybe I shouldn't drink
Maybe I already know
This will hurt me in the end
Maybe people will see the real me
And hate me
Almost as much as I hate myself

And maybe
Just maybe
I don’t care anymore