I constantly feel
Like I’m at war with myself
There’s a battle raging
Violently in my head

I have so many impulses
Contradicting feelings
This constant inconsistency
Has made me a walking paradox

I want to be heard, to be seen
I want everyone to know they can’t walk all over me
I want people to know who I am
I want to change the whole **** world

I want to disappear
I want everyone to disregard my mistakes
I want everyone to ignore my imperfections
I want people to think I don’t exist

Now, do you see my conundrum?
I want everything and nothing all at once
I want the world in the palm of my hand
I want to vanish into thin air