I once spent an entire summer with a black eye. Proving the fact that I was young and willing to try.
We drank hard in those days. Back when it all was used to enjoy. When the alcohol was a social thing and the drugs were just a little late night activity among the chosen few.
We don't move in packs like that anymore. And those of us who still indulge do it alone or in order to cope.
I'm trying to pin point that moment, that final event, that final failure that turned it all so bad. So destructive.
I'm feeling the effects of the abuse. That missing chapter. The surgeries. The fact that it took so much to finally realize the price I've paid for my own self inflicted, blameless, foolish ways.