I see you and my heart stops. You are cold as ice And you think you're that smooth. You freeze me And frostbite plagues my extremities.
My panic attack goes something like Loneliness in a crowded room Shivering when I'm burning up Dizziness when I'm sober Nausea on an empty stomach.
It's the feeling of wonder. Looking off the edge and thinking "What if? Considering the plunge.
My paper skin feels as if it is tearing And my glass bones are breaking. My porcelain nails want to scratch Rip me out of my body So I don't feel this way. So I don't feel at all.
How did I let this happen? I shut myself down And this is all I have left.
The smog in my lungs The blade in my grasp The bottle on the floor The finger in my throat.
They keep me numb to your glare. They are an effort to make sure That I continue to lose feeling in my soul.
Note: I am not suicidal. I just wanted to make a point. These are things that have plagued my past or that of someone I know, and some of them still do. But I do not need anyone getting extremely concerned, as I am not in danger.