i wish i could grow up all over again and go back
to that one second when i let him into my head for the first time.
the second i started counting calories like causalities of war.
a war that started that day.
little did i know of the casualties to come.
little did i know that i would slowly start to become one of them.
god created the world in seven days.
i destroyed mine within a fraction of a second.
if i had only known of the years it would take to take back that one moment.
i wish i could redo the day i planted that demon inside.
a demon whose roots grew too tight and too deep.
how is it that just one moment can change your entire life?
it’s funny because you wouldn’t think much could happen in a second.
but one second could be more influential on your life than
days, or months, or years, or decades could ever be.
it’s not fair, is it?
that that tiny number, so small it’s barely real,
can hold enough power over you,
to **** you.
(j.j)