he can't help but smile
as he grabs my hand
leading me out of the car

he can't help but flush
after our first kiss
in a crowded book store

he can't help but sigh
after our first heated moment
in the backseat of his car

he can't help but shake
the first time i lied
and we talked it through

he can't help but cry as
i told him why
and he help me so tight i turned blue

he can't help but rub his eyes
as he uttered his first lie
"i will always love you"

he can't help but frown
during our first official fight
when we thought the worst

he can't help but draw
much farther away
into his own mind

i can't help but reach out
trying to catch him
through the cracks in my fingers

i can't help but mourn
what could have been
and all of the time i put forth

i can't help but feel
like i want to die
but i guess i'm just stuck this way

for a while.

xoxoxo


i still love you