it's been a couple years now
ever since my best friend died
and although it's no justification
for my behavior
it is the reason
the reason i've lost all my friends
the reason i'm barely in contact with anyone
i'm so cold hearted
i used to have an empathetic heart
but now i'm just cruel
i hurt those around me
even people that i don't even know
i act out
it's scary
my mood changes so quickly
i'm hypersensitive
every little word muttered in my direction
whether it be a small observation
or a simple critique
i feel the need to defend myself and attack
i am always in the mind set
of thinking that everything is a war
i never fail to pick fights
the low blows and the jabs
i'm cheap
i don't play fair
i'm a bad person
because i just don't care
i deserve nothing and nobody