So many places to seek answers but no answers to receive. To many things to explain but I feel nobody can understand this pain. All i do is get drenched in the rain of sadness slowly being torchered and driven insane. It truely is my own self to blame. I suffer alone I stand alone I am alone to face this pain. I can sit down and pray but all I hear is my own voice in the form of an echo shooting back at me the prayers I send to ask for help and answers. May I ask whatI have done in my previous life to deserve such punishment If that is even true? May I ask what I have done so wrong evil to have to go through this pain I deal with day by day? May I ask why that every woman I give my heart to stakes it on a pole and sets it ablaze? Why my family who I love so very much has caused me to go through so much that I should have never  have gone through? Why i was born into such a hell? What have I done so wrong is the final question I have to ask.