like backpedaling on a bicycle, after getting my bags and burning the rest of the kisses you stole from me, you ran back into me, making my life chaos and showing this ridiculous front you painted on your face like clown makeup smiling effortlessly acting like i didn't bleed you out of my veins, like i didn't train my heart to swear under an oath not to paint you back into my picture, maybe you know what i'm talking about, nothing is perfectly in order for me and the tables turn before i get a chance to come to a realization that the traction between us is like fingers against a chalkboard, it's back and forth constant fear of these red strings i can't seem to cut with my safety scissors as fingers and i am a small miniscule vessel at war with this violent storm mother nature sheds onto me, coloring me in blue and black war paint but i will fight back this time and i will not teeter on the edge and prevent biting my tongue