While the Rain hits the windows I fight to conceal the emotions I dare not try and understand When I start to believe I might be okay Reality crashes back on me I feel it begin to spread And I freeze in the moment There is no help for me This sickness will never leave Lifelong enemies The highs the lows the moments Where nothing seems real When ideas are stars Countless and beautiful These are the most dangerous times When I need to feel pure Clean and untouched Reaching for a solution That only haunts me further Sliver, sharp unforgiving Relief shouldn’t make you bleed A razorblade my salvation Hidden away for nights like tonight The blood will cleanse my thoughts While the rain hits the windows.....